Today, I say goodbye to you. No more holding on …no more daydreaming of the memories we’ve had good or bad. I love you and I can’t say that I will always love you. Its time for me to fully love someone. Someone who wouldn’t hurt me and I wouldn’t hurt them like we’ve done to each other. They ay love never fails and I believe that …I once loved you yet I loved the idea of having you during a chapter in my life.
At this moment I am fully letting go of what we had . The memories and the pictures.
This year is the year to finally let someone love me fully and not just giving half of my heart because I let you still have it. I want someone to actually love me not the idea of me. Even though my heart feels like its falling apart I know its still intact. I know what its like to feel alone. Ive felt it I’ve seen it.
I just want the once to know that Ive been with I’m really saying goodbye . You can’t have a place in my heart anymore. It’s time for me to give my whole heart to the real man who actually wants it.
I recently recommitted my life to God and let me tell you things have changed a lot! My eyes look at things differently I see things with a whole new meaning. I feel and love differently. At night I just sit and pray to God asking if something comes my way give me an answer or an action that if its not your will let me see it so I can turn the other way. Show me a red flag show me something so clear that I will see and understand. Days ago God answered a prayer of mine the answer was so random and unexpected that it shocked me. It was absolutely perfect timing also. A red flag was shown to me and I realized I don’t deserve it I don’t need that in my path to where I am going in life. I deserve better and that is what God is going to give me.
He showed me a reason and a lesson in the same situation.
What I am trying to get at is that God will answer a prayer or show you something in the most unexpected ways.
Like one time I was listening to music while I was showering then a worship song came on it felt like God was telling me come closer to me I’m gonna overflow your cup.
Keep your ears and eyes open cause he will answer something to you even if you don’t ask anything.
Listen to “Good Good Father” by Chris Tomlin
……”Oh, and I’ve seen many searching for answers far and wide
But I know we’re all searching
For answers only you provide
Cause you know just what we need
Before we say a word
You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am”……
It goes perfect with this blog.
Pray Talk to him cause he’s always listening!
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One Night I was reading a book called “The Single Woman” by Mandy Hale. The chapter I was on was called You are loved. She was simply talking about we are loved by our family, friends , and God that we don’t need a relationship to show us what love is or physical things we can’t touch/have to show us love. Showing lovely gestures like helping someone carry something up the stairs is showing love. Oh, maybe even holding the door for someone is showing love. Then I started thinking what is God’s love really like. I know many people have their own explanation of what God’s love is but I wanted my own I wanted to feel it I wanted to see it. As I was getting ready for bed I was talking to God asking him if he could show me what his love for me is like. After washing my face and putting my contacts in there right case I finally laid down and dozed off. A little after midnight I got up to use the restroom ( i know TMI but just keep reading). I noticed I could see clearly for the people who know me I can barely see without my glasses or contacts. For that moment i can actually see I went to the mirror to check and see if my contacts were still in thinking i forgot to take them out. I did that about two times. I looked around my room and everything just look perfect no blurry vision at all. Then the conversation I was having with God came back to me. So This is how perfect your love is for me. Something that is so clear and perfect. No fuzzy or blurriness. Just simple PERFECTION.
It felt so good to understand in a way that you can feel and actually see.
So what i want y’all to know is that you are loved by God. If you want him to show you what his love for you is like. Ask him. He will show you.
I challenge you just to take a some time out of your day to talk simply talk to him. You will be blessed.
1 John 4:7-8
Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
Living life can be hard at times with all the social media and celebrities setting standards. Everyone is going through something in life. God created us differently and gave us challenges to face differently. We all have different strengths and different weaknesses. We shouldn’t be focused on what we should be to feel accepted. We should be focused on what God chose us to be. He created us perfectly. I believe that if we accept who we are and follow our dreams and what God chose us to be we can give our life meaning. I can’t remember who said this but he was saying its not about the year that you were born or the year you died its the dash in-between that gives your life meaning. The times you made memories, mistakes, happiness, and love. Make sure it’s a good one. The people we choose to have in our life helps us give our life meaning. Are they good or bad?
Deuteronomy 30:19-20 NIV
“This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.”
Life is such a precious gift God gave us. I am so thankful for the life I live and the people in it. When I rededicated my life to Christ I made a bucket list of what I wanted to do with my life. I pray over it and ask for God to give me the strength and courage to accomplish my dreams.
What is on your bucket list?
Sit down and reevaluate your life. Don’t be scared to make changes. If you are wanting to do better and make a better life changes are what has to happen.
I believe in you. Never give up on your life. Your are a perfect creation of God and that’s a wonderful meaning.
God picked the perfect timing to put you into my life. I have been working and preparing myself for you. My past has taught me many things that I can never see us going through. You are just so wonderful and amazing that I am so thankful to have you in my life. I promise to love you with everything I have. I will pray for you so that everyday you wake up happy and ready to conquer the day. Get ready for some fun times! Great adventures and journeys we will face together and situations that will make us stronger. Im excited to try your hobbies and for you to try mine. Yes, I know my hobby is makeup but hey you can put it on me. lol.
Getting to do the little things with you will be fun. You watching disney movies with me and when you want to watch your movies ill be glad to watch them with you. Sitting by a fire having a cold one or just making dinner together having a contest on who can make what better.
I choose to love every flaw you have even though I wouldn’t think that they are flaws they are just a characteristic that makes you ..you and that is something beautiful. When you’re stressed with work or anything life throws at you I will be there to lean on. I’ll be the listener but also the one who will speak my mind about it. I won’t bring you down I will lift you up. When you need time with the guys you will have that and I will have time with the girls but we both know our time together is something we will cherish. You are my best friend as well as I am yours.
I am really ready for this roller coaster ride with you!
I am excited to do life with you,
One night my mom was looking at Pinterest. I was talking about how my acne just would not go away I have literally tried everything (okayyyy… not everything but what i can afford). So we do what mainly every woman does…check Pinterest. Mom found this new thing if you put Calamine on your face over night your acne will heal. Of course, we were like thats weird…but we tried it. After washing my face mom sprayed the Calamine on my face. The next morning I checked my face and believe it or not my acne was almost completely gone! Yes, almost gone! I was so shocked! I have been doing this for about three nights now and I have really seen a difference in my skin. I really suggest y’all try this!